The Daily
Meditation yesterday from the Henri Nouwen Society was entitled “The Beauty of
Shyness.” (I don’t believe that it was
intended as an April Fool’s Day joke!)
This
is how it read: “There is something
beautiful about shyness, even though in our culture shyness is not considered a
virtue. On the contrary, we are
encouraged to be direct, look people straight in the eyes, tell them what is on
our minds, and share our stories without a blush.
“But
this unflinching soul-baring, confessional attitude quickly becomes boring. It is like trees without shadows. Shy people have long shadows, where they keep
much of their beauty hidden from intruders’ eyes. Shy people remind us of the mystery of life
that cannot be simply explained or expressed. They invite us to reverent and respectful
friendships and to a wordless being together in love.”
As
one who, in my youth, was sometimes agonizingly shy, I would not have used
Nouwen’s word “beauty” to describe my state of being! There were times when I didn’t even feel like
a real person. I saw classmates and
teammates with easy social interaction, and I felt tormented. (Let’s not mention talking to girls that I
liked!) I would wonder what was wrong
with me. And yet, deep inside, I sensed
that my self-doubts were unnecessary. I
lacked the vocabulary to describe it, but I knew that God had created me that
way.
Experience is often a painful teacher, so now I can read Nouwen’s
meditation and see the beauty.